Closed For Repairs

[Verse 1]

I don’t bleed where you can see it

But the cuts run cruel and deep

So I ghost the ones who need me

And I vanish in my sleep

[Verse 2]

I turn off the lights, draw the blinds

Say I’m just “busy,” I’m just “fine”

But my breath’s a quiet warning

And my heart is stuck in rewind

[Pre-Chorus]

Do you ever build a wall so high,

That even you forget what’s inside

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Verse 3]

Each time I close the door,

I lose a little more of me.

It’s safer not to feel at all—

But safe is not the same as free.

[Verse 4]

I push away the hands that care,

Then ache for someone not to leave.

I built this silence like a prayer,

But it was never mine to believe.

[Pre-Chorus]

Is it safer in the quiet, or is quiet just a lie

Is it healing if you’re numb, or just another way to die

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Verse 5]

I shut the world out fast and tight,

Pretend I’m strong beneath the strain.

But every time I kill the light,

I walk back into the same pain.

[Verse 6]

I vanish when the breaking starts,

Like distance makes it hurt less deep.

But ghosts don’t honor quiet hearts—

They haunt the ones who cannot sleep.

[Pre-Chorus]

Is closing off the safest plan

Or the slowest way to break a man

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Verse 7]

I close the door, but pain walks in,

It knows the code, it owns the key.

The hurt I hide beneath my skin

Still writes its name inside of me.

[Verse 8]

They say the walls will keep me whole,

But I’ve grown hollow in the stone.

Each wound rewrites my inner role—

I play the part of “fine” alone.

[Pre-Chorus]

Do I vanish to stay whole

Or does the vanishing take a toll

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Verse 9]

I tell the world I’m “just away,”

A break, a breath, a need for space.

But really, I just can’t replay

The trust I lost in someone’s face.

[Verse 10]

I say I’m strong—I’ve got the steel,

But strength’s not numb, and numb can lie.

This armor traps the things I feel,

And buries what I won’t let die.

[Pre-Chorus]

What if one hurt rewrote the script

And every joy since then got skipped

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Verse 11]

Each time I leave before I break,

I swear it’s self-protection’s call.

But what if all I really make

Is one more reason not to fall

[Verse 12]

I fold into the quiet quick,

As if retreat will make it right.

But silence is a dirty trick

That steals the voice I’d use to fight.

[Pre-Chorus]

Do I protect or do I punish

Is this a wound I need to finish

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Bridge]

I wasn’t born this guarded, I learned it like a prayer

Each goodbye stacked another brick, pretending I don’t care

But deep beneath the armor, I still wish someone would knock

And say, “I see you hiding—but I won’t let you stay locked”

[Pre-Chorus]

Am I quiet, or am I caged

Is silence peace, or repressed rage

[Chorus]

Every time I get hurt, I shut the whole world out

Like silence is a shelter, and pain is what I’m about

Worn by ghosts I used to be, afraid of being seen

Each time I close the door

I lose the chance to ever be free

[Outro]

I say I’m safer on my own…

But even caves get cold.