Let It Say My Name

Let It Say My Name

V1

I got a closet in my head with a deadbolt tight

I keep it “handled” in the day, then it hunts at night

I joke too loud at the table. Like I’m feeling great

Then I snap at the people I love. Like I can’t find the brake

V2

I don’t say “I’m hurting.” I say “What’s your problem. man”

I pour a little holy water in a coffee can

I do the smile like a suit. When the room gets tense

But my peace is a rented tux. With a rip and pretense

Pre1

If I never open it. does it still own me the same

If I keep it under lock. why do I live in the flame

Chorus

I bite my tongue. Then I choke on the flame

I lock that door. Still it screams my name

I wear that smile. But I stay half tame

So I face that room. Let it say my name

V3

I can be “fine” for a week. Then a tone sets me off

Somebody chews a little loud. and I’m suddenly tough

I hate that version of me. I hate what it costs

I’m swinging at a shadow. then I wonder why I’m lost

V4

I got a talent for leaving. while my body stays put

I nod my head in the room. while my mind takes a cut

If you ask me what happened. I hand you a shrug

But my hands start to shake. when I reach for a mug

V5

So I tried “being strong.” I tried “never again”

I tried running real fast. like that’s how you win

But the past is a patient. it waits in the hall

And it knocks with my knuckles. when I’m close to the wall

Pre2

If anger is my armor. who am I under that plate

If facing it is freedom. why does freedom feel like weight

Chorus

I bite my tongue. Then I choke on the flame

I lock that door. Still it screams my name

I wear that smile. But I stay half tame

So I face that room. Let it say my name

V6

I sat in a chair with no stage. no crowd to impress

Just a clock on the wall. and a slow honest mess

I said “I don’t talk about it.” like it proved I’m okay

She said “That’s not strength.” That’s just pain in a frame

V7

We named what I do. how I bail and get mad

How I turn into thunder. to avoid being sad

She said “Anger’s a guard dog.” It barks at the door

It keeps out the grief. and it keeps out much more

V8

So I walked to that room in my mind. slow and the same

No hero soundtrack. just me and my shame

I didn’t like what I saw. I didn’t like what I knew

But I stayed in the doorway. and the air started new

Pre3

If I let it be real. will it bring me some peace

If I tell the whole truth. will my chest finally breathe

Chorus

I bite my tongue. Then I choke on the flame

I lock that door. Still it screams my name

I wear that smile. But I stay half tame

So I face that room. Let it say my name

V9

I told one small piece to a friend in the lot

He didn’t try to fix it. He just stayed on the spot

No advice. no sermon. no “God has a plan”

Just “Man, that’s heavy.” and “I got you.” like a man

V10

I started to notice the moment I flare

My jaw gets real tight. like I’m biting a prayer

So I name it out loud. “I’m triggered.” not “You’re wrong”

It feels kinda stupid. It also feels strong

V11

I apologized clean. no “but you made me” attached

I fixed what I broke. no excuses attached

Some nights it comes back. and I still hate the sound

But it’s less like a prison. when I don’t shove it down

Pre4

If I can’t erase it. can I still choose what I make

If I stop running now. how much more can I take

Chorus

I bite my tongue. Then I choke on the flame

I lock that door. Still it screams my name

I wear that smile. But I stay half tame

So I face that room. Let it say my name

V12

I learned that “moving on” ain’t a ditch in the road

It’s carrying the story. without letting it drive the load

Some days I do it ugly. Some days I do it well

But I don’t call it “healing” if I’m living in a cell

V13

I still got a temper. I’m not made out of saints

But now I catch the spark. before the whole house paints

I take a breath. drink water. walk a lap in the yard

It’s wild how the tough guy move. is dropping your guard

V14

There are memories I won’t relive. but I can face the fact

I can hold the hard page. without tearing the book back

I can talk like a human. not a fuse or a bomb

And the room in my head feels less like war. more like home

Pre5

If I let it have a voice. will my anger bring me home

If I face that room for real. can I finally come home

Chorus

I bite my tongue. Then I choke on the flame

I lock that door. Still it screams my name

I wear that smile. But I stay half tame

So I face that room. Let it say my name

Bridge

I thought silence was safety. I thought loud meant I’m strong

But my anger was a cover. for a wound I carried long

So I’m learning to sit with it. no mask and no shame

Not to worship the damage. just to name what I name

Outro

Let it say my name. Let it say my name

I’m done being a stranger. in my own name