There I Am

[Verse 1]

I used to curse the sky, the stars, the storm

Swore every hurt had someone else’s form

Pointed fingers like arrows in flight

But never turned one inward in the night

[Verse 2]

I rewrote memories to fit my pride

Cut out the parts where I’d lied or cried

Said they were cold, said they were cruel

Never stopped to ask who handed them the tools

[Pre-Chorus]

What if I’m not just the wounded one—

But the match, the smoke, the loaded gun

[Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the frame

Different cast, but I’m playin’ the same

Been the victim, the judge, and the ghost in the hall

Maybe I wasn’t just there—I caused it all

Now I see it, and that’s the hardest part:

I wrecked my life to protect my heart

[Verse 3]

All the exits I blamed on fate

Were doors I built just to escape

Truth ain't gentle, but it sets you down

Where silence breaks, and grace is found

[Verse 4]

Each chapter bleeds with my own pen,

Blamed the start, but I chose the end.

Now I flip the script, confess it all—

I was the writer of my fall.

[Pre-Chorus]

Am I the storm I thought I survived

Was I the flood I called a rising tide

[Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the frame

Different cast, but I’m playin’ the same

Been the victim, the judge, and the ghost in the hall

Maybe I wasn’t just there—I caused it all

Now I see it, and that’s the hardest part:

I wrecked my life to protect my heart

[Verse 5]

I learned young that fault’s a shield,

Hid behind it, never healed.

But shields rust, and truth remains—

My hands built both the love and chains.

[Verse 6]

I ran from truth in loops and lies,

Painted halos on alibis.

But even the shadows whisper back—

You were the one steering off-track.

[Pre-Chorus]

Could I have been wrong about who I am—

A storm I called a sacrificial lamb

[Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the frame

Different cast, but I’m playin’ the same

Been the victim, the judge, and the ghost in the hall

Maybe I wasn’t just there—I caused it all

Now I see it, and that’s the hardest part:

I wrecked my life to protect my heart

[Verse 7]

Turns out I set the fire and fanned the flame,

Blamed the heat but I lit the blame.

I played the hero, but now I see—

I wasn’t saving them, just rescuing me.

[Verse 8]

‘Cause I kept spinning the same old reel,

Blamed the cuts I refused to heal.

But now the reel runs out of tape—

And it’s just me, no one to escape.

[Pre-Chorus]

Was I ever as blameless as I believed

Or just a ghost in the lies I weaved

[Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the frame

Different cast, but I’m playin’ the same

Been the victim, the judge, and the ghost in the hall

Maybe I wasn’t just there—I caused it all

Now I see it, and that’s the hardest part:

I wrecked my life to protect my heart

[Verse 9]

I dressed my wounds in others’ shame,

Turned their faults into my claim.

But I stood there in every fight—

The only common thread each night.

[Verse 10]

I wore my pain like a sacred song,

Sang it loud, but the notes were wrong.

The truth is bitter, the echo’s clear—

I was the one keeping myself here.

[Pre-Chorus]

Can I face the mirror without flinching

Or will truth break the frame I’m clinching

[Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the frame

Different cast, but I’m playin’ the same

Been the victim, the judge, and the ghost in the hall

Maybe I wasn’t just there—I caused it all

Now I see it, and that’s the hardest part:

I wrecked my life to protect my heart

[Verse 11]

Not if I tear down the alibis,

Let my past meet my own eyes.

The curtain hasn’t fallen yet—

There’s a truth I’ve still not met.

[Verse 12]

Yes, if I let go of the blame I crave,

Dig up the bones I used to save.

Only then will I be free—

To live the life that waits for me.

[Pre-Chorus]

Did I mistake my fear for fate

Was hiding just another way to wait

[Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the frame

Different cast, but I’m playin’ the same

Been the victim, the judge, and the ghost in the hall

Maybe I wasn’t just there—I caused it all

Now I see it, and that’s the hardest part:

I wrecked my life to protect my heart

[Bridge]

No more rehearsing the lines I’ve worn thin

No more pretending the fault ain’t within

I’m done hiding under other folks' sins

This time, the work begins

[Final Chorus]

Every scene, there I am in the light

Owning the blame and earning the right

To build from the ruins I once helped make

To heal the hearts I chose to break

No more escape, no casting call—

If I’m in the story, I own it all